metformin

started metformin 3 days ago. This is supposed to help balance out my sugar and insulin levels. This will then prevent the insulin hormone from dominating and allow my other hormones like estrogen do what they are supposed to do. I'm still eating really low carb, so hopefully sometime soon I will ovulate. It's kind of making me crazy just watching and waiting.

let the games begin

We decided a couple weeks ago to go ahead and START TRYING!!!!! We feel ready and excited to hopefully be parents. We were going to wait until december, and I know I've been going back and forth on this, but it is now official. My doctor is going to put me on Clomid in December, but we wanted to try on our own and see if just doing the low carb diet is enough to make me ovulate. So, I've been on a strict low carb diet since July 2nd and last time I did this, it took me two weeks to ovulate. I've been getting frustrated that it's not happening right away, but I'm trying to be patient and give it a chance. If I have not ovulated by July 16th, I am going to take progesterone to jump start a period and then see if the diet helps. Sometimes, I have to start things over with a new cycle for my body to figure out what's going on. I'm trying not to stress about it, but it's almost impossible because I've had to change my diet, so I'm always focused on what I'm eating and it is always in the front of my mind. I'll try to stay distracted with projects around the house, so hopefully that will keep my mind off of it, but I doubt it :)

miscarriages

There have been so many people I know recently who have had miscarriages. Two of them have been trying hard to have a baby. I was so happy for them, and then so sad for them. Just hearing their stories is emotionally draining and makes me worry so much. I so hope it doesn't happen to me. Especially not with my first pregnancy. I would at least want to know that I could have a healthy baby first, so I would know I could have one and not worry that I will never have a healthy baby. Why do teen crack whore prostitutes on drugs without jobs get pregnant so easily. I just don't understand. Blah.

a pregnant friend

I found out recently that a coworker who has had fertility issues for about 10 years or so and had given up on all fertility treatments and basically accepted that she was never having kids... is pregnant! I'm so happy for her. It gives me hope. I just love hearing stories of other peoples success who have had the same or similar problems as I have. I feel like I'm probably getting ahead of myself here because we haven't even started trying for kids yet. But, I feel like I need to set myself up to be prepared for disappointment. This way I won't be shocked and surprised when it doesn't happen for me the first time. I obviously have issues, so I might as well get used to the idea now. But, I would not at all be unhappy if I'm wrong and I get pregnant right away. That would be a miracle. Really, pregnancy in itself is a miracle. For everything to come together so perfectly is truly amazing. I learned that even if timing is perfect there is only a 40% of getting pregnant. That's crazy! It's amazing that it happens so often for so many people, but never for others. It seems unfair. Teens that don't want them get pregnant so easily, but a grown, employed, married woman tries and tries with no success. Ridiculous. Anyway, I am truly excited for my coworker and hope that soon one day I will know how she is feeling.

2nd time

I ovulated a couple of weeks ago for the second time since starting my diet. It was a 54 day cycle, ovulating on day 42, but at least I ovulated on my own! I've also started swimming laps at the gym on my days off so hopefully that will help control my blood sugar as well. 

back to my old ways

Still no ovulation. I'm over 30 days into this cycle, and no signs of ovulating. We've decided to wait until December to start trying now because of how much money we want to save before having kids. We will try Dec 15- Feb 1st. This will give us a September or October baby. But if I'm not pregnant by then, we will stop until June 15th to give us a March baby. I'm set on not having a baby in the middle of cold, depressing winter. I know some people think this is crazy and way too planned out, but that's just how I roll.  Then if I don't get pregnant June-October, I will consider myself to officially have fertility issues, and then I will forget the whole planning and take what I get. I will just be happy to get a baby at that point. 

My doctor said she would give me clomid at my request to make me ovulate, so hopefully in December, this will work out as planned.

So, for now, still waiting for my body to be normal.

long time

I haven't posted for a while. So, obviously I'm not pregnant.  I was a little disappointed because when I had my doctors appt on the Jan 22, I showed her my chart and she acted like there was a good possibility I could be pregnant and go me all excited because she was acting excited about it. And it also makes me worry a little about why I didn't get pregnant. Makes me worry somethings wrong. But, I know the chances were low with the timing, but I'm a worrier. On the other hand, it's better that I'm not pregnant now because we have some planned vacations and would like to save some more money before kids.

My other worry is that my luteal phase is short. I've always started spotting four days before my actual period, which was nice because it gave me a warning, but now that I'm charting and can see when this happens, I'm worried because it starts on the 10th day after ovulation. And you usually need 14 days in the phase to allow a fertilized egg to implant. I'm hoping that if this is a real problem, it could just be fixed by taking extra progesterone during that time.

So, now I haven't ovulated again, and I should have two days ago and I don't see any sign of it happening soon. I'm not too terribly worried though. We have been going out for ice cream lately with the nice weather. So, I'm thinking I've been having extra insulin on board. I'm not working as hard on my diabetic diet right now because I definitely don't want to get pregnant now through May because I don't want a Nov- Feb baby. So, I'm pretty confident that when I lay off the sugar hard core again, I will ovulate. Hopefully. 

I'm going to keep charting and I have another appt with my doctor in June to look at my charts and see what I need to do to get pregnant and stay pregnant. Hopefully we will have a baby sometime between March and October of next year. That's the goal.

My doctor decided not to run any tests because I had ovulated on my own with diet changes.