The elective place does gender US at 16 weeks which will be right before Easter for me and I thought this would be perfect because I could announce on Easter. This is great because I was supposed to announce on Halloween with Brynn but that got ruined and she was supposed to be induced two days after Easter. When I lost her, I thought about how hard Easter would be this year, but finding out and announcing the genders would just make it so much better.
The problem is, I can't make myself call the elective place. I looked up their website and there is a picture of the US room where we got our devastating news about Brynn. That room is like a nightmare for me. I'm a little nervous to go back there. I have this worry that if I go to have an US there that I will be killing my babies. Like, it's the place of death or something. Like that is the reason Brynn died.. because I went there. After I lost her I just kept irrationally playing the US in my mind and thinking that if we could go back to that room, we could rewrite the story. It was a strange feeling. Because the only experience I have in that room is an experience of seeing no heartbeat, I fear that that's all I will ever see if I go back there. But I know this is crazy and it's the only place that does elective gender predictions at 16 weeks around here.
I tried to dial their number, got three numbers punched in on my phone and had to hang up. I couldn't do it.
I have an US at my OB at 15 weeks. Most say you can't 100% determine gender until 16, but it's sooo close so I'm hoping they can just tell me so I don't have to go to the elective one at 16.
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