It's an adjustment, but it's necessary.
I do appreciate so much though when a coworker or friend asks "how are you doing?" Even if I'm fine at the moment or don't have much to say in response other than "okay", it means the world that they bothered to ask. That they are still thinking about me and realize that I'm still grieving. Nothing is worse than someone who knows I lost my baby but never says a thing about it, never asks or brings it up or bother to even simply say "I'm sorry"or "been thinking about you". The simple acknowledgement of my pain for even a split second touches my heart more than people know.
The pastor at my church called me the other day to check on me. It meant so much. It had been a couple of weeks since he'd called and I thought like everyone else, he had moved on. When I picked up the phone and he was on the other end, it made me tear up a little that someone still cared, still wanted to talk about it, still saw that I might be feeling alone. It made my day.
Then there are the friends and coworkers who have lost a baby themselves in the past. They know. They are the most helpful. They acknowledge that I'm not totally "fine" yet and that it's ok if I'm still a little sad. I want to thank them. If anything good can come of my loss, I hope one thing is that I am able to be that person for anyone who loses a baby in the future. That I can relate and be there for them like my mom, Brenda, Erin, Hannah, Cate, Christina and Rachel have been there for me. They know. They've felt it. They've been there. The best people to talk to are those who've either struggled to get pregnant, had a miscarriage or lost a baby. They understand the longing and the pain completely. I am grateful for their words.
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